Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Negative Me
Through out our lives we often get feedbacks about ourselves. Of course we love positive feedbacks and feel hurt with negative ones.
In my earlier years, my friends often commented that I am insensitive to others. Talk whatever I want without considering others feelings. And now I guess I am oversensitive haha....
Did I change for the better? I think no. I developed another negative trait. I become far too sensitive that I can't even stand small tiny little things that others have done. Things like people being late, yang not messaging me, friend not saying hi to me will actually affect my mood for the whole day. So do you think its better this way or should I change to my old self ? Then I can inflict unhappiness into others rather than myself. haha ....later I got no more friends left.
Ok the latest comment about me is.........Wenting you look FIERCE...A lot of people commented this. Firstly is Victor writing in my testi, then Jiyang's friend, Roy.....followed by Joyce. I was told by a customer when I am doing gift wrapping in taka.
He says,"eh you look as if I owe you money leh?"
Well looks can be decieving isn't it? I asked yang ...y dint you defended me when your friend thinks that I am fierce.
He simply says,"you are fierce what."
Hell, when did I gave others the impression that I am fierce? I always tot I gave others the feeling that i am a happy go lucky person. Y there are more and more people saying I am fierce?
Ok let me console myself...Josephine just say that my blog is funny. Oh! only one person leh....ok my mum did say that I have a good temper(thats bcos I dare not scold her, if I am fierce she is 3 levels up). How abt Jia Jia? At least I not fierce to her, cos she 2 levels up.
But i think fierce-looking is hereditary. I guess so. My father's face always scare babies into nightmares, my brother ah xian got a very kuai lan face, my friends last time also says that my mum looks fierce and ah yao dun need to say he is a clumsy teletubbie.....onli my sis ah hui is exclusive. Cos she got an irritating face hahahaa.....
So next time you see me when I am not smiling......dun think that I am fierce ok? I am actualli an entertainer. An entertainer who pretends to be fierce so that I can find the real person who appreciates my art of communication.
In my earlier years, my friends often commented that I am insensitive to others. Talk whatever I want without considering others feelings. And now I guess I am oversensitive haha....
Did I change for the better? I think no. I developed another negative trait. I become far too sensitive that I can't even stand small tiny little things that others have done. Things like people being late, yang not messaging me, friend not saying hi to me will actually affect my mood for the whole day. So do you think its better this way or should I change to my old self ? Then I can inflict unhappiness into others rather than myself. haha ....later I got no more friends left.
Ok the latest comment about me is.........Wenting you look FIERCE...A lot of people commented this. Firstly is Victor writing in my testi, then Jiyang's friend, Roy.....followed by Joyce. I was told by a customer when I am doing gift wrapping in taka.
He says,"eh you look as if I owe you money leh?"
Well looks can be decieving isn't it? I asked yang ...y dint you defended me when your friend thinks that I am fierce.
He simply says,"you are fierce what."
Hell, when did I gave others the impression that I am fierce? I always tot I gave others the feeling that i am a happy go lucky person. Y there are more and more people saying I am fierce?
Ok let me console myself...Josephine just say that my blog is funny. Oh! only one person leh....ok my mum did say that I have a good temper(thats bcos I dare not scold her, if I am fierce she is 3 levels up). How abt Jia Jia? At least I not fierce to her, cos she 2 levels up.
But i think fierce-looking is hereditary. I guess so. My father's face always scare babies into nightmares, my brother ah xian got a very kuai lan face, my friends last time also says that my mum looks fierce and ah yao dun need to say he is a clumsy teletubbie.....onli my sis ah hui is exclusive. Cos she got an irritating face hahahaa.....
So next time you see me when I am not smiling......dun think that I am fierce ok? I am actualli an entertainer. An entertainer who pretends to be fierce so that I can find the real person who appreciates my art of communication.
Sunday, May 21, 2006
eh....love
Ever wonder when relationship gets a bit bored, nothing to look forward....people tends to get a bit frustrated.
Don't be mistaken. There is perfectly nothing wrong between me and yang.
Just that sometimes it is really so bored that you starts to find faults in him, his friends, his job and everything too. And it gets so bored that I really wish to quarrel and shout at him.
The worst thing is I don't get the chance to do it.
Ironic.
Don't be mistaken. There is perfectly nothing wrong between me and yang.
Just that sometimes it is really so bored that you starts to find faults in him, his friends, his job and everything too. And it gets so bored that I really wish to quarrel and shout at him.
The worst thing is I don't get the chance to do it.
Ironic.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
The little thing call "life"
Quite fed up with life these few days....
worried abt results....
my upcoming acca exams....
some ungrateful friend.....
and the fact that now i have to study all alone.
actually i always have been quite open abt making friends and will go all out to help you if I feel that i am click with you. But now I guess some friends will just take you for granted when they need your help.....after that they will just disappear. So take my word some friends are just not meant to keep.
Well, I shall now just get on with life. Nothing big but just make sure I get up every morning.
worried abt results....
my upcoming acca exams....
some ungrateful friend.....
and the fact that now i have to study all alone.
actually i always have been quite open abt making friends and will go all out to help you if I feel that i am click with you. But now I guess some friends will just take you for granted when they need your help.....after that they will just disappear. So take my word some friends are just not meant to keep.
Well, I shall now just get on with life. Nothing big but just make sure I get up every morning.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Woes of An NTU engineering student
Assumptions of an average Engineering student:
1. Prepare Exams and start to get panic 3 weeks before the first paper.
2. During the term, rush miscellanous stuff like fyp, quizzes and a life with family/bf/gf/friends.
3. Selectively do some tougher tutorials during the semester
No one will doubt my above assumptions. But let me tell you, someone like that will not complete within 4 years in NTU CEE.
It's behind everybody's head that we are the dumping ground of the 3 engineering schools though our lecturers don't talk about it. So they fail us like no other people's business. When I get to year 2, I realise there is no such thing as moderations for my CEE subjects as we still take some common year 2 subjects. Y? Because the lecturers think we are not up to standards. Let me tell you about our failure rates.
Structures 1: Not sure but about 80 percent of us take twice to clear it.
Structures 2: 70 percent failure rate
Reinforced Concrete: 70 percent failure rate
Structures 3: very high pass rates because it's matrix and maths
Geotechnical engineering: 70% failure rate
I am now so immune to failing. The above mentioned are only those with top failure rates. There are much more. Why don't the lecturers go and think y is it this way?
Reasons:
1. The lecturers can't teach. They read back the formulas to you from the notes and expect you to solve the toughest questions in examinations.
2. They like to say,"Come and look for me if you got problems." Go and die! I got 8 subjects plus a FYP to handle.
3. Quizzes are suppose to help but they set tough quizzes that flunk everybody. Eg. Geotech. And they have many quizzes in one week.
4. The exam questions are not well done. 1-2 questions should be relatively easy and 1 or 2 question to differentitate the better students. BUT they set all 4 challenging questions.
5. I have a problem.
And now I think I got problems graduating because of their fantastic tough questions. Their ruthlessness in killing us and making us stay back. People stay back 6 years to study in my course. I am really tired in studying for all these nonsense things that I doubt will help me in my development. And for god sake I wont be an engineer. Just let me off I plead you.
1. Prepare Exams and start to get panic 3 weeks before the first paper.
2. During the term, rush miscellanous stuff like fyp, quizzes and a life with family/bf/gf/friends.
3. Selectively do some tougher tutorials during the semester
No one will doubt my above assumptions. But let me tell you, someone like that will not complete within 4 years in NTU CEE.
It's behind everybody's head that we are the dumping ground of the 3 engineering schools though our lecturers don't talk about it. So they fail us like no other people's business. When I get to year 2, I realise there is no such thing as moderations for my CEE subjects as we still take some common year 2 subjects. Y? Because the lecturers think we are not up to standards. Let me tell you about our failure rates.
Structures 1: Not sure but about 80 percent of us take twice to clear it.
Structures 2: 70 percent failure rate
Reinforced Concrete: 70 percent failure rate
Structures 3: very high pass rates because it's matrix and maths
Geotechnical engineering: 70% failure rate
I am now so immune to failing. The above mentioned are only those with top failure rates. There are much more. Why don't the lecturers go and think y is it this way?
Reasons:
1. The lecturers can't teach. They read back the formulas to you from the notes and expect you to solve the toughest questions in examinations.
2. They like to say,"Come and look for me if you got problems." Go and die! I got 8 subjects plus a FYP to handle.
3. Quizzes are suppose to help but they set tough quizzes that flunk everybody. Eg. Geotech. And they have many quizzes in one week.
4. The exam questions are not well done. 1-2 questions should be relatively easy and 1 or 2 question to differentitate the better students. BUT they set all 4 challenging questions.
5. I have a problem.
And now I think I got problems graduating because of their fantastic tough questions. Their ruthlessness in killing us and making us stay back. People stay back 6 years to study in my course. I am really tired in studying for all these nonsense things that I doubt will help me in my development. And for god sake I wont be an engineer. Just let me off I plead you.
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